- Tue Jul 10, 2018 12:53 am
Alanmota, I dont typically respond to posts anymore after last years barrage of attacks you sent me via pm. It was totally vile and uncalled for. In fact because of that situation, it was one of the biggest reasons I decided to stay away from FTC forums. In case you havent noticed, I rarely, if any at all partake in any conversations here anymore. It has simply taken the fun out of it for me. Simply because I do not care to be a part of it. Perhaps after some time maybe, but right now I just happened to see your post when I was looking at the seedbank inventory. Little do you or anyone else here know, I am still the highest contributor to the seedbank here. YES, I still prowl around waiting for you to run out of seeds, so that I can selflessly decide to send more in to Mike so that you guys dont run out. I have NO desire to argue, as I am a 42 year old man and I simply do not care to debate, or fight about whatever has gotten under someones thin skin. I also do not partake in name calling. Moderator, super user, or not, I am simply a regularly ranked member who used to want to help others, and I had a genuine concern for people. I also used to be a semi-adviser here whenever I felt like someone wasn't getting their question answered in a timely manner, I'd chime in. But not after last year. Granted, Matt, and his lovely crew took care of that. Still it simply wasn't enough to make me want to come around. I have put thousands of hours and years into growing a collection with plants that many people have never even seen, and probably never will. Had that not occurred last year, you probably could have even been getting plants or seeds from me personally. Although you have already said what you pm'd to me, and yea it pissed me off, I forgive you. I forgive you because little does anyone here in this forum realize (with the exception of a couple people whom I wont mention) that I am by nature a nice person. I'm also a funny person. I like to laugh, I like to cut up. I dont take life too seriously. With that being said, I did not come here to make friends, or impress anyone. People are either with me or they're not, that's fine and I really do not care. I'm a well educated person and I'm not spending my life defending my words, or my actions. If I made a friend out of you that's great. If I have offended you, well that's great too. Either way with me. I also had another incident a year and a half ago not involving you, where I feel as though I was made to look like a bad guy, where another grower who was involved with me at that time decided to pump a bunch of gossip about me into a friends ear, and I feel as though it costed me a very valuable friendship between me and my friend that meant alot to me. Some things you just cannot get back or take back. Truth is, I've moved on in this hobby, growing stuff that hardly anyone has that I'm aware of. One day I'd like to share it. But In order to do so, I cannot stay pissed off at the world, otherwise I'll have nowhere to share it, except in my carnivorous plant FB groups that I'm an admin of. I have PLENTY of people here in THIS forum who can back me up 100%, but I do not need them to. Look Alanmota, you my friend have a plethora of valuable information here on this forum at your fingertips waiting to be absorbed and put into good use. Use it wisely.
I have decided to give you the good ol digital handshake since you're not here, and I'm not there obviously. And yes those who do NOT know me, you probably came after I left. I was not the only one who did leave, there were 3 others whom I still talk to to this day on daily basis. So for your apology, I thank you.